Haecceity of Becoming-Mother: A Diffractive Analysis of Babywearing Through a Global Pandemic

This paper problematizes notions of good/bad mothering by putting to work Deleuze and Guattari’s haecceity. Focusing on babywearing, it presents an autoethnography my experiences becoming-mother during the Covid-19 pandemic. Using diffractive analysis, I analyze entanglement research diaries, images/selfies, regulations introduced pandemic, “global cultural script” being a good mother. It works toward position (k)not knowing, open unknown. Under lens haecceity, is “thisness”—a middle, knotting, unknotting, ever emergent.